{"id":1246,"date":"2026-06-13T18:40:23","date_gmt":"2026-06-13T18:40:23","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/mattysami.com\/?p=1246"},"modified":"2026-06-13T19:15:58","modified_gmt":"2026-06-13T19:15:58","slug":"patchworky-us","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mattysami.com\/index.php\/2026\/06\/13\/patchworky-us\/","title":{"rendered":"Patchworky us"},"content":{"rendered":"\n

Now this <\/em>is you. This is really truly you.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

That’s one of the lines of “Sort samvittighed”, a musical currently running in Betty Nansen in Copenhagen.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The women are lined up, in pink gowns and hair in curlers, and they sing that line to eachother over and over again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As if they’ve been through a makeover that has polished off their rough edges and revealed their true natures inside.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Makes me wonder if this is a universally female experience, this feeling of not knowing ourselves.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Because no matter how far I stand back, I also can’t see the pattern of my own identity. It exists, but I can’t see it, and I keep feeling compelled to come up with new things to slap on top that will make me feel like I can finally define who I am, wheather it’s a sport, hobby, hairstyle, or place of residence.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

There has never been one overarching meaningful thing guiding what I do, what I choose.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It’s like I’m looking at a patchwork filled with random pieces in random materials and colours and shapes. Maybe if I stood far enough back I could spot a pattern. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Maybe that Betty Nansen play is an indication that a lot of women have this makeover desire. Like a need to define who we are through external things because somehow the rest of us seems too intangible?<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don’t have the answer.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

But here is a patchwork of what my life has looked like in the past few weeks:<\/p>\n\n\n\n

Ellie is the love of my life.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I made a knitting needle organiser for my circular needles.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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And one for my Double Pointed Needles.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I finished knitting a vest but I think it might be slightly too small. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

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I go bouldering every week. It’s my outlet, I need it to control my anxiety and it’s good exercise. It’s like a reset button that makes everything feel okay again. I dread it and I don’t want to go, but my brain is not a reliable judge of what’s good for me. So I go anyway.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Lead climbing is the same, just a million times more potent. A million times more dread, a million times more peace.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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My 9-5 probably takes up the majority of my time. I work in marketing. Right now, I cosplay as a journalist. I write blog posts and newsletters based off of customer and employee interviews. It’s a corporate job, it’s not art. But I take my wins where I can. It might not be much, but talking to interesting people about their experiences and writing about it is kind of nice. Plus, we get to solve puzzles as a task pallet cleanser. Love that.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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